Sometimes it seems like my feelings just want to get injured, and so anything and everything hurts them. Walter's screaming because I'm a bad mom. Levi's had a bad day at work and I can't make him feel better, because I'm a bad wife. I realize I have no idea what's going on in my friends' lives, because I'm a bad friend. I don't have enough heart-to-hearts with my siblings, because I'm a bad sister. I haven't showered and I go to Walmart in my sweats and large T-shirt that are both covered in baby drool, because for just one day I don't want to care about what I look like to the rest of the world, and because for that one day my life feels hard. And why can't anyone just understand that and give me a hug?! Why is the world so selfish and mean?!
Then flood gates open and I become a hormonal mess. And I suffer...
But then I breathe, pray, and count to 10. And I open my eyes and see my life for what it truly is:
oh, sometimes..
ReplyDeleteLove that second picture of Walt with the big blue eyes! Dunno about that kid with the mexi stash in the background though ;)
Now I have that flo rider song in my head.. must be the mexi stash that got it there.. haha
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3OnnDqH6Wj8&ob=av2e
HE IS PERFECT!!!!! He's so cute. Oh my gosh. I can't get over it. I love this post. Love you. :)
ReplyDeleteI want nothing more in the world than to go to walmart with you looking terrible and give you a hug...... Or I want to look really really great one day then see you and make myself feel better.... heheheh he. Actually, in truth, I just want to give you a hug!
ReplyDeleteAll I want to do is drive to Bountiful and give you a big hug!... and go to walmart with you to buy dip n dots in sweats.
ReplyDeleteI love the way you write Alli! I have definitely been down on myself today for all the things I've epically failed at and this post was a great reminder to take a step back and realize how great life is when I decide I want it to be. Cheesy, but true.You are great and you have the cutest little boy ever!
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ReplyDeleteYou really capture how everyone feels and put it to words. How wise you are as a young mother! I still battle with seeing things "how they really are." This week I have been making a "stop doing list" so that I can have more time "to do" the things to help me be a better wife and mother. I also love all the good you look for in Levi and Walter. Thanks for your example.
Good job Alli, I love you. Dad
ReplyDeleteThat was beautifully said. You speak the truth and I love that about you. You are wonderful and I am so glad you are part of the family!
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